I've had a lot of different thoughts swirling around in my head ever since the AP Exam (I think my mind just kinda went crazy without APUSH occupying it 24/7).
It's weird what all this summer is going to bring on...my brother is going to move out after it's over and go on his mission, which, as excited as I am for it, will make me the only child at home (something that's never happened to me before...long term). Also, this summer I'm spending a whole month in Utah with my sister, her husband, and my nephew Ethan. I'm extremely excited, but part of me is afraid to go back for that long, I'm not really sure how I'll handle being so close to my old home, but having so much changed. I also turn 16 in July (the age that from when I was about 5 I always wanted to be), and I'll be ordained a Priest, just two months after I wasn't the only Teacher in my quorum...
I've also been thinking about me. Sometimes I just wonder if I made the right decisions in my first few months here...it's been three years, and I'm not sure if I'm happy where I am. My family is great, and my friends (most of the time) are also great...but I still wonder if there wasn't something I should have done in those months to make sure that I was happier now.
That all sounded a little selfish...but sometimes I don't think I've done anything worth while, or I'm not who I really want to be...I just wonder if there's anything I could have done to change that...
Anyways this is Zelos, thinking,
See ya.
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